Sometimes we need to put our feelings to a rhythym

You hurt me today.

A pain I've felt many times before.

Another promise was broken, much to my dismay.

There have been too many to account for.

You throw words like daggers,

but use those same words to avoid a war after every battle. 

A well planned attack, calculated and thorough, 

driven by something cold, dark, and callous moving in silent brutality.

I always heard that love hurts,

but no one ever warned how deep the daggers would cut.

You hurt me today. 

A pain I feel becoming unbearable. 

I waited for you to come home,

so I could welcome home my husband just like you asked of me.

I did what you asked of me, 

I always listen to what you were saying so I could be what you need,

and so you wouldn't be mad.

I feel my heart beating like a drum against my chest as your car pulls up.

Will it be enough to matter this time?

Then I see your face and instantly find myself examining,

if I will have a change to smile today or if the eggshells I live on will shatter as I fall back onto them.

You hurt me today. 

A pain I'm afraid had become too much. 

I really thought you were committed to changing this time.

Every time those lips lets the promises slither over them to me I'm filled with faith,

why does it never translate?

These cycles are growing unpredictable and unpreventable,

positive thoughts becoming a distant memory as the smiles pass faster and are further between.

My mind begins to offer less and less love,

as you suffocate my heart with hate.

I gave you everything you asked for,

my body, my mind, my soul, it was all yours for the keeping.

I completely surrendered myself to you with complete trust and love, 

but you took so much I have no pieces of my soul left to give you.

When will you see me, actually see me as I crumble before your very eyes, 

a broken abandoned shell of myself clinging to life, to my love for my husband.
A husband who hurt me, a man who never loved me...

You hurt me today.

A pain I vowed to myself I will never again feel.

My heart seems to spill over with grief and shed tears my eyes can no longer allow.

I feel myself screaming and begging from within to give me a sign, an emotion, 

remind me, show me, let me feel that I do matter to the man I have spent my life with.
I simply asked to see that you cared, although deep down I always knew that it wasn't true.
So many times I had left you, I didn't even know what to do,
living without the only love that I knew...
Its why I came back hoping for change,
not this time master, oh no, this time I made the final move!
I may stand here alone but this I can say,
you will never again hurt me, not this day, tomorrow, or EVER!
I took back my life,
the one I foolishly had given to you.
I took back my soul, and walked away with nothing but a big FUCK YOU!